melancholic
Sabi nla at sa ilan kong nabasa when we are in love daw, everything
around us is perfect. bad hair days and other likes are nothing. we feel
happy, light-hearted..contented. we ignore the heat of the sun, the
traffic, the loads of our daily responsibilities, ever annoying daily
meetings at work, parents every morning lectures and everything that used
to irritate us.
well, its been a long time since iv once felt those..
sad pathetic little me that was the girl i used to be..hahaha
i remember being really mad this morning to this driver. pinababa niya kc
ung pamilya n mukhang pulubi n sumakay. ‘wala nmn pambayad mga yon..’
sabi niya. i see how (i assumed) the tatay humiliated look been so
defenseless for his family account.. he just smiled then tell his kids
not to worry for they can ride another jeep..while the irratated faces of
his kids flag no hope. this scene moved me. ive gone mad. mad to myself.
how do i let it happen. why i did not rant over the drivers face til hel
give that group a ride. why i didnt lend a fare fee for them instead..nd
so many endless posibilities i mayt did. but end up ranting here. hay..
wala.
actually ndi nmn un ang isyu ko.. i dont know. i was just about to write
something whatever popd on me while listening randomly to alternatives.
kanina nasa mood ako ng moving on theme.. whatever. iv moved on already. flip. rewind. awhile ago, i was tempted. tempted to taste forbidden slice of friendster. account that i forbid myself to view. but gave in to it.
i eat it whole again. there. just like a switch. it flashes days back then.
i am now lonely. hes not.
love is blind. love is so misleading.
and i am sober..all that is serve to me. no longer will i drink again.
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